Some of you know that my kitty has been having some problems over the last few weeks. We took her to the emergency vet on Sunday because she could hardly stand, and couldn't hold her head up, was hardly eating or drinking, and was just pathetically miserable.
They did blood work and told us she was in renal failure (kidney failure), among other things. They wanted about $1000 to keep her hospitalized and give her IV fluids and medicine to see if we could get her stabilized and feeling better. That was not in my budget.
I took her home and we went to our regular vet yesterday. After a lengthy consultation with my very compassionate vet, with a thorough breakdown of all of Ashley's current problems, including renal failure, low potassium, anemia, acidemia, diabetes, hormonal imbalance, hyperthyroidism and a heart-murmur (they suspect she was throwing blood clots due to the heart-murmur which was contributing to the inability to move properly), and a discussion on the likelihood of improvement after 3 days of hospitalization, and the ongoing intensive care she would require post-hospitalization, we came to realize that at 17 years old, Ashley had lived a good, long life.
It was an extremely hard and emotional decision, but we decided it was time to say goodbye to my sweet kitty. She was with us from the time she was a little tiny kitten, and has been a part of our life everyday for 17 years. I miss her tremendously, and my house is empty.
I had to keep reminding myself yesterday that I didn't have to get up to go check on her, find her or pester her.
I am beyond sad. I have a reputation for not being a cry-er, and being unemotional...well, I will tell you all that I was a big snotty mess yesterday at the vet's and afterward...it sucked.
I came home and numbed out on the couch.
Chris has been awesome. For a guy who told me for years he hated my cats, he was very sad, too. He told me the other day to stop posting pictures of him and the cat on facebook. :-) I am going to post these two because they make me smile.
This is the last picture of my sweet kitty. I took it outside the vets office, after our consultation and before we said our final goodbye. At first I thought it didn't turn out, but then I decided it was very appropriate...she looks like an angel.
I miss my sweet Ashley Marie...and am so sad about having to say goodbye.
Rest in peace my sweet kitty.